I've gotten into some stuff that would make my husband think I'm crazy and possibly divorce me: Sadism - I like to see others; particularly gorgeous women, in serious pain.
I'm not into girls, haven't ever kissed one (and I went to a Southern party school), so I don't know where this is coming from, why now, and why girls? I guess I could get turned on watching a very hot man getting beaten, but it's just not arousing to me like watching girls get whipped and tied up and slapped and degraded is (plus the men that are in these videos are always ugly and watching them get beaten and degraded makes me feel bad for them TBH).
If I had a therapist I'd tell her: "No, nothing has changed in my life, everything's good. The kids are doing well in school, my husband and I have a good sex-life, we're financially secure and love one another...I guess I went down an internet rabbit hole and found my kink."
Wish it weren't such an extreme kink - an upper-middle-class wife with kids in a $25k/year private school has no business watching the type of videos I watch.
But I'm going to document this thing, see how long it lasts and, what (if anything) I end up doing. Watching videos, getting turned on, and ravishing my husband works for now 😜!
But I'm going to document this thing, see how long it lasts and, what (if anything) I end up doing. Watching videos, getting turned on, and ravishing my husband works for now 😜!
I don't think I could ever act on it.
I don't think.
I would love to chat and play this kink of yours. What type of pain for women do you like?
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