Muah!

Just marshmallows you perverts 😜

Still hot

Got messages for more pics so here’s one - I’m in damn good shape after having kids!

Yes, my pic is me ages ago. I got crazy at Spring Break in college :shrug:

I am trained as a nutritionist and eat well and work out but my body has still changed. Plus having kids will do that to you.

I’m never going to show my face but I’ll show body pics of me now vs then: I look back and I’m like DAMNNNN! I was *really* hot when I was 18! No wonder my husband wanted to marry me!

Maybe if I post a link it'll let me go to this blog?

First Post - What and Why and Why Now?

This blog will be a diary of my sadistic thoughts since I'm waaayyy too "Country Club Mom" to act on any of them.

I've gotten into some stuff that would make my husband think I'm crazy and possibly divorce me: Sadism - I like to see others; particularly gorgeous women, in serious pain. 

I'm not into girls, haven't ever kissed one (and I went to a Southern party school), so I don't know where this is coming from, why now, and why girls? I guess I could get turned on watching a very hot man getting beaten, but it's just not arousing to me like watching girls get whipped and tied up and slapped and degraded is (plus the men that are in these videos are always ugly and watching them get beaten and degraded makes me feel bad for them TBH). 

If I had a therapist I'd tell her: "No, nothing has changed in my life, everything's good. The kids are doing well in school, my husband and I have a good sex-life, we're financially secure and love one another...I guess I went down an internet rabbit hole and found my kink." 

Wish it weren't such an extreme kink - an upper-middle-class wife with kids in a $25k/year private school has no business watching the type of videos I watch.

But I'm going to document this thing, see how long it lasts and, what (if anything) I end up doing. Watching videos, getting turned on, and ravishing my husband works for now 😜!

I don't think I could ever act on it.

I don't think.